I haven't updated this blog in awhile for a very specific reason. I knew that I would not be able to contain my excitement for what was happening.
I'm pregnant!!!!!! Not only am I pregnant but at just shy of 12 weeks we heard our sweet little one's heart beating away. My nurse practitioner said that at the end of your first trimester, hearing the heartbeat on the Doppler is a very good sign and that my risk of miscarrying is now down below 3%.
I cannot tell you how thankful I am that it seems like this one is going to stick. I know there are no guarantees, but I am trusting in God's plan for this all. I am amazed at how much trust God has built into me over the last 6 months. With my history of miscarriage/chemical pregnancy I would have assumed that I would be a wreck for the first trimester of my next pregnancy. Instead, God gave me so much peace and reassurance that I couldn't help but trust. It has been helpful that I have dealt with some pretty substantial morning sickness (going on 5 days without throwing up! Woo Hoo!) and I have really "felt" pregnant this time. It's all God. Left to my own devices I would have been fearful, anxious, and lacking of any trust. But in His great mercy and grace, God has given me so much peace and calmness.
I won't keep rambling on and on, but realize this: God is faithful. He hears our prayers and He answers them. God is bigger than our problems and He knows what is best for us and so I will choose to trust Him through this pregnancy, knowing that His ways are higher than mine and He works all things together for the GOOD of those who love him.
God is so very good :)