Perseverance. Strength. Endurance.
All words that I would never use to describe myself.
Tonight, I feel so empowered. I have never been athletic, never run more than a half mile, until recently.
Lets back up a couple days. On Saturday I went for a run. One that I thought would be pretty easy. I was supposed to run 10 minutes, walk 3, run another 10. I had run 2 8 min jogs and a 5 min a couple days earlier. Saturday, my run was awful. My head wasn't in it and the whole time all I could think about was how much I hated what I was doing and how I just wanted to be done. All of this was made worse when I looked at my watch to find out I was only 5 minutes into my run. I made it through the first 10 minute run, barely. Sadly, I was close to home so i just gave up. I hate giving up, but I knew my head just wasn't in it. I kicked myself for a little bit and then decided I would try again in a few days.
Today, I got the itch to run, which is very rare. I decided to take advantage of it once it cooled off a little and the sun went down. I began my run hoping just to be able to do the two ten minute runs. I prayed as I did my warm up walk, Jesus give me strength, give me perseverance, help me to trust you to get me through this.
Well, He answered. I ran 20 minutes without stopping. Just about 2 miles. This isn't a lot for a lot of people. For me, its huge. Its not just about how far I ran. Its about God's promises and His answers to my prayers. It's for developing those traits that I have always longed to have. It's about trusting God and trusting myself. It's about way more than running.
Thank you Jesus for your promises. Thank you that you never leave us, never let us down, and always pull through. Thank you for giving me strength and perseverance. Thank you for teaching me about You through my running.